i can’t handle you ughhhh
listening to my christmas playlist nonstop !
now i’m going shopping and i “might” buy some stuff to decorate
good morning !!!! <3
please read it and maybe tell me your opinion if you want to <3
had my first appointment with my new psychologist in Cologne. She’s really nice and I have a good feeling and I think I’m going to continue seeing her. I already feel so much better than before. Eating was fine for today and I did some stuff for uni, so this gives me a good feeling and calms me down a little bit. So now i’m going to take a bath and watch “make it or break it” and relax and then i’m going to beeeeed, watch a movie, work on my presentation for tomorrow and just feel calm and “put together”.
idk why. i would say that i was busy with uni and gym and socializing, but that’s not 100% true. i just felt the need to relax aaaaaall the time these last weeks. i could sleep all day, rest all day, lay around and watch TV 24/7… even though i know that i need to get my lazy ass up and get some stuff done. it’s almost November and during mid December we’re already having exams, so i really REALLY need to start studying..
but this week i’m not going to uni on monday and tuesday, bc……… aaaahhhh i’m going to Hamburg !!!! even though it’s in Germany and a pretty big and popular city, i’ve never been there ! i’m so excited and i can’t wait !!! :)
but yeah on Wednesday i’m going back to uni and i’m planning on NOT going out until Friday/Saturday.. i really should get more serious about everything. this uni is a hell lot expensive, so i want to give it my all :)
i hate my body, i hate myself right now
i haven’t taken my meds in almost 2 weeks.
i’ve started eating again.
too much party. too much alcohol. too many boys.
i got a little outta control, so i need to get back to normal.
restricting. taking my meds and concentrate on uni !!!
hash tag thanks daddy :)